So my little girl turns 10 today. Wow!!! I remember the day she was born so clearly. How nervous, excited and emotional I was. How small, fragile and beautiful she was. How the realization of just how much my life would change hadn't fazed me yet.
Nine months before when I had first found out I was pregnant, I was floored! Not because I wasn't happy, but because I was surprised I was pregnant at all. A diagnosis as a teenager that I would never likely have children kept me from dreaming about it before. Yes I had thoughts that I would adopt someday, but that day as I looked at the results of the 4th home test I had done I was in disbelief. One thing I had realized is that God had truly healed me. I thank him for many things of course but besides my salvation, giving me the gift of my daughter is the best thing that has ever happened to me. An although I divorced now, I still would not change a thing because the gift my Ex and the Lord gave me is priceless. I would endure any suffering and hardship ( and I have had to do some of that already) for the sake of my daughter.
I think of the selfish being I was before I had kids and wonder how I made it at all. Kids make you better, smarter, more compassionate. They teach, entertain, and love without measure. The lessons I have learned as a parent have helped me reach more of my potential in many ways, and I would never change that. Any good parent will tell you that having children is more of an education than school itself.